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Saturday, November 28, 2015

Feminism is blocking your Fairytale



So I know it's been a while and I was going to keep my prayer journal online and I still plan to do that. To be honest no pressing issues have come up to log into a prayer journal. I have just been thankful for my blessings. I really want to reserve it to show how God moves when we ask him for things or to move in our lives. It's no secret I do pray for my future husband daily. When I say I pray for him I am not praying that God will send him because I already know he's out there. I am praying for his needs and his happiness. I am praying for his family as they will be mine someday. I pray that he will be the role model that my boys deserve. I also pray for his heart. I pray that he isn't broken when he finds me. I pray that he will be emotionally available with no distance or timing issues to overcome.

As I read posts on social media I realize that dating has evolved into something that is so jaded. People are so guarded because they've been hurt. They want to love so bad it hurts them just as bad but they can't bring themselves to open up again. Some are so riddled with guilt they don't think they deserve to be loved. Others pretend to be guarded when they know all to well that they wear their hearts on their sleeve. It's a facade. The truth is whether our walls are real or fictitious they come crumbling down when the right one comes along. When I say "right" I don't necessarily mean "the one". I am generally speaking about people who enchant us. People who move us and fill us with hope whether we want it or not. We are helpless to it all. What happens when these people get too close? We start finding reasons to run. It's better to dig for it early on than wait for the disappointment when we are fully invested right? We have all been guilty.

I see posts from women who market themselves as strong independent ladies who "don't need a man just want one".  They post their feminism political agendas. They shout gender equality. They want a man who is willing to do this or that because they think they're entitled to what they want in a man like anyone else is. I disagree with these women. I am opposed to the feminist movement. I think the feminist movement is one of the biggest culprits in the dating world today. Women want to be able to be slutty and sleep around without the double standard simply because men do it. Women want to be on the front line in the military and hold the same job titles as men. Women want to demand all these things that are unnatural. They feel this way because somewhere along the line they have been let down by a man they trusted whether they're conscious of it or not. If they want all these things then why are there special rules given to these women in the military and jobs? You can't have it both ways ladies.

Men are afraid to compliment me, open the door for me, pay for a date because of the feminist movement. They are becoming accustomed to women who prefer this treatment. My desire to be courted is something of the past and it isn't how things are supposed to be. Men are designed to protect and provide. They are made to lead. They thrive on respect, appreciation, and support. Women are designed to nurture, submit/follow, and support. I am not saying every man deserves this respect. I am not saying women aren't capable. I am very intelligent and I am very capable to take care of myself.

Christian men who know their role as a man will love God more than a woman. He will obey him and follow him. Christian women who know their role as a woman will love God more than a man. She will seek him first in everything and obey him. She will submit to him to meet all of her needs. She is to seek a man like this. That man is worthy of respect, appreciation and support. If he is obedient to God then submitting to this man is obeying God as well. Just because you submit doesn't mean you aren't capable. It means you love and respect your spouse to be the leader of the home. When you allow him to rise to his potential in this way his needs will always be met. He will feel like a man. He will thrive and lead your family. You may not always agree with him but you respect and support him regardless. You pray for him daily and encourage him. He will adore you for this and your needs will be met as a woman.

I am not saying you have to quit your job and stay home raising babies. Times have changed and if it requires that both spouses work then so be it. When I say gender roles I mean the Lead/follow roles. If you make a man feel like the only man alive when he comes home then he will want to be there. Both spouses should live selflessly and put God first in everything. When you discuss issues it should be at the table in the kitchen and not your bedroom. Your bedroom should be reserved for alone time and intimacy. It should be where you both hold one another and pray together. Greet him at the end of the day with a hug and a kiss. Cook for him and run his bath or shower. Throw his towel in the dryer so its warm when he steps out. Massage him and let him relax. When he wants to be alone don't follow him. Don't nag. Once you tell him something he knows. If there is a honey do list then write it on a chalkboard in the kitchen and allow him the time to work on things as he can and praise him for it when he does. Never disrespect him especially in public. If you disagree then you save it until you are alone. Be open with intimacy to explore things he enjoys. Make him a priority. Do the things you did to win his heart and never stop. You are too tired to have sex? Then you need to rearrange your priorities and cut something out so that you aren't too tired for your husband. Tell him how proud you are that he provides for your family. Tell him how much your appreciate his faithfulness and dedication to you. Tell him that you respect how he always puts you and the family ahead of his needs. Tell him how safe he makes you feel.

If you want a man like this then make a list of what you are looking for in a spouse. Read your bible and seek God. He will show you what a Godly man looks like. When you are dating look for character traits in the actions not just the charming words you hear. If a man walks up to you and asks you out then he is assertive and brave. He knew the risk of rejection was there but rather than being cowardly he faced it because he was interested in you. Allow a man to open a door for you and take you on a real date. Allow him to pick you up and drop you off. Get back to the anxious feeling of a goodnight kiss. Look forward to flowers and love notes. It's not about a chase its about a man who is willing to pursue you as Christ did. When he opens the door and lets you in then lean over and open his from the inside. When he pays for dinner or a movie thank him for the wonderful evening. When he shows up with flowers brag on him for being so thoughtful. Allow him to be the man he was designed to be. Show him what it feels like to meet those expectations in a woman. He will feel like a respected gentlemen  and you will feel like an adored princess.

You are after all a princess and he is after all your prince charming because you are both children of the King. If you seek him first and obey him in all that you do then you will live happily ever after.

Dear Future Husband 11/28/15



Dear future husband,

I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving wherever you were! I also hope that you are a Mississippi State fan and are somewhere cheering them on in the egg bowl! It's ok if you aren't...I don't expect you to be PERFECT. I am decorating the house for Christmas and I was just hanging our stockings. I think I will hang an extra one for you this year just so you know that I haven't given up hope. I hope you aren't mad at me for listening to that jerkface when he told me that he was you! I totally think you should beat him up for impersonating you. You should be proud to know that I put God first and kept my focus on him through all of that and he protected my heart for you. I realize now that people will use my faith and anything else to get to me for whatever reason. As long as I keep my eyes on what is important I don't have to worry about that. I find myself wondering what you are doing right now. Are you mixing a drink and talking with your friends? Are you driving and getting lost in a song? Are you working and counting down the hours until you're home? Are you ringing your cowbell? That's it isnt it? I knew it! ;) Wherever you are I hope that you know I still pray for you and your family whatever you may be doing and wherever you may be. I pray in detail. I pray for your thoughts and your faith. I pray for whatever ails you. I pray that your family and friends support whatever it is that you are doing with your life. I pray that you think of me and what I may look like or what I may be doing. I pray that you have peace knowing that I'm not rushing into and out of whirlwind romances just for the sake of loneliness. I hope you know that I'm waiting patiently but expectantly to kiss your face. Until that day comes please keep your faith in me.

Love,
Your Future Wife
Ashley

#dearfuturehusband #loveletters

Sunday, November 8, 2015

How to protect your Heart



So here I am after all that has transpired. My heart full of praise for all that God is. I posted about finding a man who was the answer to my prayers. I logged my prayer journal. I posted about Satan vs. Intuition. I exposed all of these moments to those of you who read and follow me. Well the truth is that the man turned out to be everything he said he was not. I didn't want any of you to think negatively of faith and prayer and claiming things that we pray for. I have sat patiently waiting on God to lay on my heart what it is that he wanted me to learn from this. You see God did allow this man to come into my life. I may have been wrong about the intent but God doesn't make mistakes. The peace I felt about this was real. You see sometimes people come into our lives for a brief moment to teach us something or to plant a seed for things to come. I gave God my heart and I prayed about this situation as I do everything. I kept God in the center of my life. I focused on him rather than this relationship. I was looking at him to direct it in whatever direction he wanted it to go. I was hopeful and excited but I always ask God that his will be done over my desires. When this man let me down I was in awe that I felt no pain. I didn't cry. I didn't feel heartbroken. I've always read  Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it. Proverbs 4:23 but to be honest I haven't always known how to guard my heart. I have always felt powerless to the passion I have felt and falling in love. I thought guarding my heart meant building walls and I didn't know how to love that way. I dont know how to give myself in layers. Im an all or nothing person. It wasnt until now that I see the way to protect our hearts is to give to the one it belongs to. I gave my heart to Jesus and I kept him first therefore he protected it. The circumstances were no different than before. There was a man who was everything I have ever wanted and he led me on. This has happened before and I felt crushed with disappointment. Why not this time? Well there it is. This time....I put God in the center of it all. I had been praying and studying about God's love for me. I wanted to know how to truly make him my first love again. He sent a man into my life to teach me of his love for me. He is showing me that I am his and he is mine. He is displaying all the characteristics that I should seek in a future husband. Men may come along dressed exactly like all I have asked for and I no longer have to fear the risk because I know who holds my heart. I know who protects me. It is about obedience and keeping God first in all we do no matter what it is. Isn't that amazing? We don't have to fear! We don't have worry! We are called to love and he shows us the magnitude of his love everyday as long as we look to him. I forgive James for hurting me because he is broken and doesn't know what he is doing. God knows his heart and I do not. God extends grace to me abundantly therefore I would never withhold that grace from those who do me wrong. He didn't ask me for forgiveness. He didnt even apologize. I extend my forgiveness anyway. I pray that God blesses him and his life. I pray that he finds whatever it is he is missing. I pray that he see that all he needs is God and all else will fall into place. I pray for the hearts he may be breaking in the process. I still have faith in all that I have prayed for. That faith is unwavering. I am so full of joy and nothing can take that away.

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

A Preface of the Post to come





I am posting to simply preface what is to come. I have to gather my thoughts and pray over them before putting the pen to paper or fingers to the keys, if you will. A lot has transpired within me over the past couple of weeks. I have witnessed a lot of growth inside of me that I never knew was there. I will say that the man who convinced me that he was sent from God as an answer to my prayers didn’t turn out to be what he said he was. I will say that everything happens for a reason and God doesn’t make mistakes. I want to share with you how God answered my prayers and the lessons I am walking away with. I simply need to process what I am feeling before I go there. I can admit that there is an ounce of anger inside of me right now. I have forgiven the deceitfulness. My heart is not a home for cowards and God is protecting it. If I ever doubted the magnitude of his love for me, never again will my faith waiver. This weekend I will not have my children so I will spend that time alone writing and sharing with you all. I pray that God blesses you with favor today and the rest of the week. Until then…

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Satan is a Liar



I've been in a hurricane of emotions over the past 2 weeks with different things going on in my life. I don't share the negative things because I don't like breathing life into them by even acknowledging them. I give them to God and I let them go. It doesn't mean I don't find worry creeping up on me from time to time. That is something that I have dealt with and I am battling it with the truth of God's word. Logic and hindsight has taught me to guard my heart. God's word has also taught me to guard my heart...but in a different way.

Proverbs 4:23 Above all else guard your heart for everything you do flows from it.

There is a fine line of guarding yourself and being jaded. It's hard to trust when you've been broken but I saw a post that said "God never commanded you to trust people. God commanded you to love people and trust him. Know the difference. Your joy and victory depend on it." This hit me hard. This was what I needed to see. God uses people to bless us in ways we never thought possible. People post things on social media, we hear song lyrics, we read things, someone tells us something and there it is...that sweet affirmation of what is trying to tell us. We must be always make sure we are humble and that we are listening. I have said before that God answers prayers and he guides us but sometimes his voices is as quiet as a baby's breath and sometimes it's as loud as a church bell.

It's easy to praise God when everything is amazing and we feel on top of the world but what about when we are struggling with something inside? What about when we are hurting? You see when we praise God and we share his love with others and proclaim how he has blessed us then you can rest assured that Satan is on a mission to destroy it.

The thief comes to steal, kill and destroy; I came that they may have life and live it abundantly John 10:10

You see the more we share God's love in our lives the more people want to know him and this angers Satan. We shouldn't allow that to silence us. Rather look at it as a sign that you are on the right path. If he isn't trying to attack you then you aren't a threat to him and that should make you rethink how you are living your life. I was proclaiming God's answer to my prayers. I claimed that God had sent an amazing man into my life. For a week this man and I shared the sweetest conversations and getting to know one another. We prayed for each other and felt the euphoric excitement of infatuation. I've said before that this isn't "falling in love" in spite of what people think. It is simply an emotion and happiness when something is new and exciting. It is hopeful. A few days ago the communication between he and I slowed down and I began to worry. Satan whispered his lies reminding me of how men had led me on before only to leave me standing there alone. He reminded me of the signs when they change their mind. He wanted me to analyze everything.  It's easy to see these things when you are looking at them in that way. That is why we have to look to God and remember who he is. Why would he bless me with something and allow Satan to take it from me? He wouldn't. Satan hit me hard when he reminded me of my intuition. He played on my faith and reminded me of God's discernment. I started to wonder if I needed to just step back and give this man space. I started wondering if he was afraid. I know that men can get excited and say things then retreat out of fear. All of these thoughts plagued my mind but God's truth remains. It was a verse that this man had shared with me in the beginning.

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

There could be any number of reasons that communication slowed down. It could very well be the pace that God is laying on our hearts.The point is how we see things are entirely based on perspective. There are amazing things going on in our lives everyday. God's love and grace are overwhelming and those are the things we should focus on. Praise him for all he has blessed us with and all that he is. There are negative things going on all around us as well but our happiness is based on where we focus our attention. Just like Proverbs 4:23 instructs us to guard our hearts this is what it is referring to. It isn't saying to build walls. It in't saying to not let people in. It is saying to not let Satan steal that joy. Focus on God's love and blessings in spite of Satan's lies. It isn't always ok to "trust your gut" ...it is always necessary to TRUST IN GOD and his holy word.

For the Lord gives wisdom. From his mouth come knowledge and understanding Proverbs 2:6

In God whose word I praise in God I trust and am not afraid what can mere mortals do to me? Psalm 56:4

I choose to focus on God's blessing in my life rather than Satan's lies. The fact is I am not in control of my life. God is in control. I can't control whether or not I get hurt. I can't protect my heart from being broken. When I begin to think I can step in and steer my life in the direction I think it should go is when I will fail. When I began to worry then I was telling God that I don't have faith that he is in control. I wasn't being obedient. I contemplated writing about this but I promised to be transparent with you all. In order for you to see how God moves in my life you need to see how Satan also tries to attack. You need to see that it doesn't mean I don't struggle just like you do everyday. It does mean that I have someone who loves me unconditionally and if I will follow him and hold his truths in my heart then I am equipped to battle Satan when this happens. He has no power over me because he that is within me is greater than he that is within the world.




Dear Future Husband 11/1/2015



Dear future husband,

Good afternoon darling. I hope your Sunday is treating you well. I want you to know that I still pray for you everyday. I know God is blessing you and I have faith that you know who I am. God has laid it on my heart to tell you that you are safe with me. Your heart is something I plan to take very good care of because I intend on exchanging yours with mine. I want to love you past your pain. I want to be the place you call home. I want to pray for you and hold you until every doubt disappears. It isn't easy allowing yourself to be vulnerable especially when your heart has been broken but we all come from a place of brokenness. It is through God's love and infinite grace that we are made whole again. I will never disrespect you. I will never let hateful words escape my lips. I will never be dishonest. I will always be loyal to you and grateful for you. I will always tell you how much you mean to me and how much I appreciate all you do. I will support you and lift you up when you feel tired. I will hold you close to me when you need rest. God blesses us in countless ways. He often blesses us by sending people into our lives to meet the needs we have. I want to know you and I want to be that blessing for you. I pray that when you find me that you wont be afraid. I pray that you will not doubt me. I pray that you will not distance yourself from me. If you run I will still be here praying for you. If you are scared then I will wait patiently until you know that I will not bring you any harm. Take your time sweetheart. You've certainly waited this long to find me ;) I am used to waiting on you by now. Until then just know I am praying for you and I live with expectancy.

1 John 4:18-19
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.

Love your future wife,
Ashley